You're gone, for good. Somehow the way reacted yesterday wasnt what i expected would happen. Months ago i imagined myself crying my heart out in front of the glass window eyeing at you till you walk out of the scene. But yesterday was in total contrast. I didnt feel a shit, maybe because i was just too mad with the way you treated me yesterday. But somehow or another, i wasnt as mad as before maybe because i had enough, im just so damn use to it, or maybe because im your bestfriend and should just give you space with your other friends. I dont know, like your mom said, theyre just more important. You wanna know how i really felt last night?? i felt leftout, disappointed, awkward, sad sad sad. For the first few seconds after i met you, i didnt feel like crying at all, i diddnt feel sad at all that you're leaving, maybe because i've cried enough the past few days. But after hugging you, i just thought of the past and our primary school day, those happy memories, it just kind of pricked me, I totally broke down. I just want you to know, i miss you so damn fucking much. Even though i have been really mad with you and stuff, i still wanna be your bestfriend. People may say why should i? she doesnt deserve you and stuff. But they'll nv understand how much we've been through, its like i've put in too much into this friendship, its not something that could be taken away from mee with just a snap. I tried giving up once, but its hard, it really is.
Loveee you always mariannnee
